when you don’t blog for a while, it makes for a very extensive and lengthy next entry. there have been several things floating through my head recently as a result of my new job (which is absolutely fabulous, by the way!!!).
first, i heard on my favorite morning show, q-100’s the bert show, a discussion regarding talking to kids about sex. one of the things that really stuck out to me was the idea that sex, something once so personal and sacred, has become so publicized. a mother had caught her teenaged daughter exposing her goodies to random, strange guys via skype.
while i’ve never digitally exposed any of my goodies, i thought of my blog. i’m aware that i’m actually quite conservative, maybe even prudish, as compared to some of my counterparts. i’ve seen and read some things that would make a las vegas call girl blush.
but i actually struggled for some time with which parts of myself and my life i’d share with the world. one of my consistent goals is to live for me, to authentically care not one iota what others think of me and to never again (since i experienced the challenges of teasing, bullying and low self esteem as a teen) let people’s opinions of me influence how i live my life.
at the same time, i’m at the start of an influential, human services career i’ve worked for my entire life. part of this career involves working with impressionable young women who look to me for guidance. and most importantly, i’m a parent. while we all make mistakes, i don’t ever want to be shamed before my child or my own mother.
but as soon as i began to feel vulnerable, a friend emailed to let me know that she appreciates me sharing my life and experiences and reinforced my idea that i’m helping others feel connected and understood. several others have also thanked me for my transparency. and so ahead i forge. i must admit though that my motives for blogging are still a little selfish. i sort of want the pressure of knowing that people are watching my growth and hope that the pressure will push me to succeed further. either way, i’ve resolved to maintain transparency while still being true to and consistently respectful of self.
all that to say that i’ve decided to share my (now changing) views on sex, sex education, adolescent health and how my son and i will talk about it all. more to follow…